That girl

This is a poem for that girl.
That girl who smiles with her mouth and not her eyes
That girl who has so many dreams but so little faith in herself
That confused girl who forgot to leave her past behind and grow up
Or maybe she simply didn't know how to leave it. Let go and let flow.

That girl who doesn't think she is beautiful. Constantly plagued with her own insecurities and the almost impossible standards she sets out for herself.
That girl who hides those scars, those black and blue marks she claims as her only trophies
That girl who is caged behind their expectations for her
Those girls who are expected to be nothing less than a super woman.

This poem is for those girl's who are going through something.
That girl who has prevailed.
She took those plows you handed to her metaphysical being.
That girl refuses to give in. She is strong despite wanting to call it a day
She keeps on breathing
She keeps on living.
She keeps on taking those steps. One at a time.

That girl is timeless. She is an experience all women must learn.
She is your insecurities, your doubt, your lack of self confidence.
She is that weakness, that is so weak she forces you to grow in strength,
She can be your greatest weakness or your greatest  success story.

That girl... you know her. She is in every woman and girl.

Love

Even though I am in the library, attempting to write up a project on water. I decided to write.

I have been through a lot  this year already and I'm just going to free style this piece.

Love.

You have made me cry, think, doubt myself.

You have caged me in my own body.

I have wished death on you, Love.

All because you trapped me in my body and mind.

For once I couldn't run away from you.

You taught me that I can deal with my emotions.

Love you taught me that you exist.

You almost broke me, you made me sob from the depths of my soul.

You almost broke me I repeat. You made my soul ache.

You were and are the growing pains of my maturity.

You forced me to grow up. Open my eyes and survey the world I had been hiding from.

You seduced me,

made me feel like I was on floaty clouds and then you disappeared on a high.

You broke my wall. You know which one!

That concrete , land mind filled one.

You taught me to care about others beyond myself.
You taught me the golden rule of patience, silences and thinking before I act.

I could go on writing about you love.

But this.This being you Love. Also told me not to give you away to just anybody.

Let me tell you a secret Love. When I was a little girl, I believed with all my heart that you did not exist for me. I Have come to realise that you do.

Love. My beautiful oxymoron.

Thank you for your recent and future lessons.

I just wrote this in a few minutes literally. These words have been swirling around in my heart for a while. I hope you find them useful.

I just thought I should share a song with you guys, that relates to this piece.

Love you guys

Tiwi x