Catching Feelings

Sometimes I would sit and think of you...
Life sure is funny. Our meeting was nothing special . But it sure taught me a lesson.
I don't know what to think anymore but life has taught me not to listen to feelings
Feelings are one thing I imagined. Between you and me. Feelings that extended beyond the physical.
How I was wrong, you see you know how to toy with me and you were good at it when I allowed it.
Realising I had allowed foolishness to make me feel unworthy , gave me the power to take charge and cut  those feelings.
You see you like to play those mind games. And yet he claims to be an open book. Humans , we are so flawed and twisted that we deceive ourselves sometimes.
Feelings. In my opinion they're dangerous and can get your heart into some interesting situations.
Feelings are a choice. They can be imagined you know?
I've imagined a few in my day.

Pain

Pain forces maturity 

it makes you vulnerable, naked to yourself.

You can no longer hide behind that mask you put on for everybody

because you just have to face our self.

Pain can either break you or make you.

It makes you dysfunctional and tests the boundaries of your sanity.

It can consume you,

It can change form and state. 

hate, anger, loneliness, you name it.

It can be converted into energy. It makes you determined to do something.

Pain can be a driving force.

It can eat you up inside. It is like acid, eroding all the goodness to reveal the ugly unwholesome things we like to hide.

Pain brings about unwanted emotions.

Rejection.

I like to compare pain to a festering wound. Open to infections. You cannot cover it with 

a band aid, as it takes time to heal. 

Pain is all these things and more. 

Of late, pain you have been my inspiration,

my creativity

my companion.

Somehow you are always there, reminding me. You make me strong and weak.

Just like Love your friend, you are bittersweet.

Tiwi x