I am not a writer but I am compelled to write about my life experiences. Things I observe, things I go through , things I feel strongly about. Self reflection is important. This is a reflection of me
I yearn and thirst for your knowledge
The only one who makes me whole
Lord Jesus I am no ashamed of your gospel.
For your grace and salvation saved my wretched soul.
You set me free from the shackles of sin
From the bondage of sin, family curses and the plan on the enemy.
I don't say this enough but Thank you Lord.
You always set me in the right path, even though it is a struggle for me sometimes
You keep on blessing and forgiving me
You are always here listening to me.
You showed and taught me love. Before you I knew only pain, darkness and rejection
But You came into my love and surrounded me with your peace that passes understand.
This is just a little note to say Thank you Lord. To exalt your holy and precious name
Renew my oil Lord. For I am your oh God.
Bless me with your understanding. Hear the words of my heart.
I desire to walk in your path of righteousness. My heart's desire is to know you better
Thank you for your love, your word and your understanding
I realise now that I have been giving you guys a few poems here and there but not really interacting. Life is a roller coaster, I now understand that song. You guys will not believe how many drafts I am yet to finish. I always get bursts of inspiration but I never finish the stories I start.I will be working on finishing those and sharing them with you guys. I hope you find them as interesting as I do.
I also know that I had this monthly review of my life thing but after January I simply got caught up with life.This getting caught up tendency has made me realise that I need to take out time to reflect and absorb things that have happened in my life. Now that I am footloose and fancy free ( graduate in the house) I am going to build a new routine that includes reflecting on life and what is really going on around me. ( I can be so oblivious sometimes)...I am challenging myself and you guys to take up 'reflecting on my life thus far' time.
As I was recently disowned by my soon to be brother in-law for being a bad writer / poet you guys should expect : more poetry. music I'm digging, Life stuff, hair stuff, Food ( I'm free), and cries for help with my dead exercise regime ( guys I need to get health but I just don't have the motivation, I need to get some) and more ... Always expect more.
SOOO ... I was inspired today. I finished reading Americanah by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie and I must say it is the best book I have ever read in my life. No joke and no I am not exaggerating. Reading this book was like switching on a light bulb for the first time. Believe me I am one of the those romance novel fanatics and I loved this book more than 2 people falling in love. I suggest everybody reads this book, it touches on racism, being born in dispora, black women and their hair, religion, marriage, love , growing up in Africa, moving abroad , immigration and so much more.
After reading this book I looked at my life through a different lens. I also realised how naive I am. It was like being let into people's heads and seeing the reality of life for some people.Reality is a warped concept and not everything is black and white.
I learnt so much. I wanna get this book in hard copy because yes it was that good.
Any who ladies and gents that is all for today. I hope you pick the book and read it , I promise you won't be disappointed. Over the next couple of weeks I will be reading books and recommending them to you or telling you what I've learnt from them.
Sometimes I drift, thinking about you
Jill Scott singing it's love in my ears
I imagine me swaying my hips to this song slowly as you watch me.
Where will this be I wonder?
Love, Love , Love...
That's my note. I repeat her lines over and over again. Singing to you. Scatting doo doo dooby doo it's Love.
Or maybe you are not there. It's me on my own in my room. Singing ...love , love, love , love.
Swaying, moving ,dipping, It's love.
That bass, those drums , those horns. All come together in a beautiful symphony of sounds. That voice rushes over me.
The sound of raindrops. The steady dripping and dropping. That beat ooooh woooh it's love.
The rhythm is intoxicating. I lose my words to describe.... it's love.
You sang to me from the depths of your soul.
Your essence is deep, you are my Renaissance man.
You are intelligent, talented , spiritual ( you know the Godly kind of spiritual). With you it's more than your looks in fact your looks are just the added bonus. Your mind makes you beautiful to me. The things you say and do make simply shine a light on your physical being.
I love it when you sing it comes from deep within your soul. Those husky undertones take me to a special place. A place where I imagine sunflower fields, sunshine, happiness and freedom. Your voice it warms me up like hot chocolate on a rainy day. It is like an invisible hug cloaking me with love.
Sometimes I would sit and think of you...
Life sure is funny. Our meeting was nothing special . But it sure taught me a lesson.
I don't know what to think anymore but life has taught me not to listen to feelings
Feelings are one thing I imagined. Between you and me. Feelings that extended beyond the physical.
How I was wrong, you see you know how to toy with me and you were good at it when I allowed it.
Realising I had allowed foolishness to make me feel unworthy , gave me the power to take charge and cut those feelings.
You see you like to play those mind games. And yet he claims to be an open book. Humans , we are so flawed and twisted that we deceive ourselves sometimes.
Feelings. In my opinion they're dangerous and can get your heart into some interesting situations.
Feelings are a choice. They can be imagined you know?
I've imagined a few in my day.
So I haven't done one of these posts in forever. Actually to be quite honest I've done like 1 of these ever before lol. I was just looking back on some of my old blog posts and I decided to do another What I'm listening to these days.
I thought I'd share 2 songs that have been in my Spirit first. One is called Desperate People by Micah Stampley and the other is called I give myself away by William McDowell.
So I just got back from Singapore and on the plane I wanted to listen to some music to relax me. You see , I hate flying the turbulence freaks me out. On my journey back I rediscovered some music (in the form of the Michael Jackson Thriller album) and discovered Alica Keyz new album Girl On fire ( I think it's called that not sure).Alicia's album is from the heart, I could feel it, all the songs are beautiful.
Listen to it believe me when I say you won't be disappointed.
This album has so many good memories for me. I'd forgotten about the song the girl is mine. I know all the words and I sang along to it. And the song PYT always made me feel so beautiful and special even when I didn't love myself all the much.
The next song is by Justin Timberlake. One of my best friends posted it on my wall and I just love it. JT coming back with some good music . The song 'That girl' is very soulful and kind of reminds me of his Senorita hey days.
Fantasia has pleasantly surprised me. I love her new look and her new single. She sample 'night shift' by the Commodores for this new single and I must say she did the beat justice. The 1920s/30s flapper girl look throughout the video was on point and the leading man was a good choice in my opinion.
Another love song by one of my personal favorites Chrisette Michele. This woman grows with me. She has a song for every event in my life lol. A couple of forevers is a beautiful song about being in love ( no i' m not in love yet) But when I am this will be one of my songs.
Chris Brown's new song Fine China, is beautiful. I love love love it.
Eve is back and I love her new single. It's very inspiring and different from what you usually hear in Hip Hop these days. ( I am not even a hip hop fan and I love this song)
Now I'm going to take you guys to the mother land. Lately I have been loving Liquid deep and dj Kent, Big nuz and DJ Ganyani and Khona by Mafikizolo. If you have never listend to South African music then prepare to be delighted.
Liquid deep and DJ Kent on top of the world is a beautiful song. I love it. It's about being in love.
Big Nuz, DJ Ganyani and Mlu
The beat is awesome. I love this song, the video is cool too especially Mlu's gold teeth ( lol)
Mafikizolo doing what they do best. This song is awesome and makes you want to dance.
Tear gas Jabula song is awesome. I love everything about it.
World meet my new loves the Soil. This song is beautiful and all about love once again :D.
Let this song speak for itself ( besides that I'm tired of describing stuff lol)
I've also been listening to a future superstar in the making and a good friend of mine Lando. This girl can sing, she is a talented artist and true to her craft. She has two songs out at the moment and I thought I should share her beautiful voice with you guys.
And to end with I found another Calvin Richardson song 'True love' This song is beautiful. I love it
I hope you like my installment of what I'm listening too. If you guys have any suggestions on good music you think I'd like then please feel free to share. As you can tell from this post I am into all kinds of music.
So I finally used some heat on my hair just to blow it out. It was not fully stretched out but I loved how I looked. The humidity shrank my hair :(. So for the final looked I just used 4 bobby pins, 2 on each side. I made a mini fro hawk.
